It's at times like these i feel like i'm so worthless and unimportant in your eyes. No i dont think its jealousy, but it's just about being a little more fair to me. When will you ever understand me because you think you know me,but you really don't. I'm so tired of trying to reason things out with you because it just leaves the both of us breathless and back to square one where nothing is settled. She tried talking to me and explaining but i still cant seem to accept your approach of things, will a little straight forwardness kill? How come everytime i try to take a step in my life by myself you come in and make things sound so bad and just put me down for it. Why do i find myself constantly proving to you it gets so bloody tiring sometimes. Do you know how fucking shitty that feeling is? I wish you could have seen how things have been and then maybe you'll understand why i chose what i did. I cannot wait for school to start and hall life to begin becasue then i'll be able to escape from all these.

ive finallyq uit IRAS last friday!!!mixed feelings guess ill miss heading back there every morning and the company!!!was all that kept me gng there (: hahaha the two retarded guys and anniee.work at tp's gonna be more regular now i guess!which i really dontmind casue the whole gang is there!!plus edwardie and paupau,it makes work so much more enjoyable (: though tring,butt goood work out i guess,HAHHA.and we've planningsooo many events for tp somemore hahaha its really quite funnyyyy hurhur.i just hope they all actually get carried out.LOLS.last night was da bestttt!!heeee vallyyy edwina and i were blasting mambo and oldies music and singing and dancing to them while planning for our zoo outing and farewell partyy!! :(

YUPP so my mass comm orientation camp is the first week of july!!quite excitedddd but i only know oneee person from ac that's heading thereee :( but wheee i cant wait for sch to start too!!htough i know its gonna be damn hectic,but its gonna be so different from jc!pluss with the party girl cherylllll as my roomie,things are gonna be awesoe im suree (: well,i HOPE.hahahaha. sooo the weeks to my camp and start of sch will be spend enjoyinh myself and shopping for new clothess to fill my uni wardrobe!hurhur.

yeah but when school starts,it also means my lovelies are leavinggggg :( gonna miss jampok and laury like shittttt ad i better be able to come out from camp to send them off!!yeahh.alrightyyy think thats about it,a bit lazy to upload photos here,hahah so check them all out on fb!IM OFFFF to slack,hehh.LATERSS

yelloowwwww!time really flies man i cant believe half the year has just zoomed past like that.buttt i guess it was quite well spent since i worked for at least 4 months (: cant wait to quit iras though,hahah and ive started work at tea partyyyy ^^ omg tiring shit hahah but good experience i guess and fun cause i get to work with billyyyy (: but i think when mid june ellen and val wont be working as often thereee :( ANYHOWSSS im currently not at work cause i took leave today,hee.its a niceeee day to chill and hang out and slackkk.driving in the morning wasn't too badd, test is about a month awayyy!nooo idea if ill pass the first time :S

ANYWAY last night was girls night out finally!!!hahaha after sooo long it was back to the old times with the girlies and it was an awesome time spent witht hem! ^^ photos below laterr.we drank quite a lot and thanks pokkie for the treatsss im gonna miss you like shiiiitttttzzxzxz when you leave :(:(:( superman shun came topick us up after thatt!yayeee hahaha dropped jam off before fel shun and i headed to al azaar to eat yummy less oil maggi goreng,hahah!he dropped us home aft before heading back to queen's hse to give her teh BING and cheese prataaa.fatty is so annoying when shes high,hahaha KIDDDING,still love you loadssss.OHH and she found someone last ngiht,HAHHAHA,okay dont kill me.

alrighty that was justan update of yesterdayy,hahah other stuff's been happening i guess but im just taking things as it comes.i hate it when my life gets complicated. :( okay before i bore you with more nonsense ,PHOTO UPDATEEEE (:

met up with the class girlsss (: my dear trixxxx ^^

ARTATTACK'S BDAYYY ^^ hahahh at hollandddd

if only his eyes were opennnn-.- hahah

smurffff and pokkk ((:

tea parttyyyy (: last fri if im not wrong! ham and cheesescones, a lot of teaa and indian poker ^^

sunday with the girls (:

fatty and i saw transformers at taka yest!!hahaha damn cute

there was mroeeee hahaha

my loveliess <3

rest on fb (:

resist;

You were so different and hence so special and i thank God for leading me to you.

I'll never forget everything and i'm truly deeply sorry. But, all the best and i hope i'll still hold a small place in your life. Take care my dear. Xoxo you know this is for you.

HELLOHELLOOO!!i'm finally backk again after a long long breakkk!hahha.yeah i was just thinking maybe i should get back to bloggingto hone my writing skills and get back to writing to prepare me for uni!!hahah which also means i'll most probably be accepting NTU's offer of communication studies!  really thankful that i got accepted into the other two courses too as welll.

ANYWAYYY nothing much's been uppp,actually maybe there have been but im too lazy to recall and update about the past so from today onwards i'll be updating my current status and lifeeee!haha well try to,i need to get back into my blogging mood again first,haha not so much now yettt.have been working everyday!!and it drains me off my energy alott even though my workload has really diminished by a lott thanks to the two new funny guys around that keep me entertained throughout work now!!hahaha and they get thrown most of the work too cause my supervisor just cares for me too much and doesnt want me to have an overload of work,hee. yes and my original plan of staying till end may is postponed to midjuneee!but my sup is allowing me to take leave anytme i want so work hoursw ill be quite flexibleee,i thinkkk. i need them to anyway!!

if i havent already publicly announced on my fb status,hahahha but i passed me FTT!YAYEEEE!!i booked the earliest TP test i could findd and kinda regret it now cause my instructor totally nagged at me about it cause its too early and im not ready ATALLL. :S its in mid july so now driving lessons will have to be rushed throughh at least twice a week and i need to drive in the DAYYY. omg the circuit is sooo horrible especially when my first 2 times were done at night.i could barely see the poles,his silly red dots in his car,what's more his explanation sucks damn bad!hahahha and im not kidding,whether is it in chinese or english.so yeah,i get scolded every lesson if im not wrong.bleah and honestly,hes not the best instructor for sure.sighh.I WANT TO PASS MY FIRST TIMEEE. (:

yupyp anyway imon leave todayyyy (: that explains why i can be here blogginggg.hahah gonna support rugby with the girlies laterr and finally meet billyyy ^^ havent decided if i shld head down to smu later though for the reception. enough of my boring talk, KRIS WON AMERICAN IDOL LAST NIGHT!!WHEEEE!!! (: hes more an american idol materiali guess even though adam's vocals beats him handsdown,hahaha but i think everyone was just as shocked as i was when kris won last night.BUTT either way,i like them bothhhh. (:

HOKAYZXZX i think that;s enough for todayy,hahah i thinki can actually just go on and on reminiscing about the past few weeks but i shall nottt.PHOTO UPDATES (: much easierr,hehh.OFF TO SHOWER!LATERSSS ^^

cheryyllll's smashing 19thhhhh ((:

happy bday babbyyyyy ^^ timbre at old school!

partyy at butter after which was HORRIBLEEE ttm.seriously.we spent half the time there queuing and waiting -.-

good old timeessss hahaha catch up session and american idol watchinggg!heee.miss them tonssss

tennisss,swimmm and then nice hearty lunch of sandwiches andbeer at breko's after with the WHOS (:

tennis this sat again okay!!ITS CONFIRMEDDD,hahaha

yummylicious butter chicken with garlic naan,mutton,spinach with cheese and papadam at little india bombay hotel ((:

some mango icecream dessert thing which was orgasmiccccc,hahahha butfreaking sweeeet!

tsanggggg and we headed to mustafa after!hahhhaa

HOKAY GOTTA RUNNN!

i shall attempt to get back to my regular updates of my life. (: ATTEMPT is the key word cause i think i may still feel quite lazy and some stuff are better left unsaid,mmhmm.with that saiddd

TODAY wass alrighttt okay i guess im actually supposed to be resting at homee haha but im neither sick nor feeling unwellll.so yeah met queenjamie in the afternoon in town!she was feeling a bit pissy about stufff,hahha so luckily i was there to calm her down,hehh fatty came to join us after!we walked around for a bit before they had to rush off to delta to watch the hockey match!ohh but i think we stood at orchard mrt for like half an hr just discussing and complaning about our uni application status manzxzx,it was quite funny,hahah.

i headed down to ccab to meet val where she was watching rugby with briya and harresh!ac won!!!wheee!!even though i missed the whole thing,hahaha but yayee glad to be able to meet val just for a while and to catch up just a little (: saw jin yeeee,heee.ANYWAYSS we left like half way through the rj match cause val had tea party at 6!followed her down and saw pau and xinru if im not wrong,hahaha.

wished i was there working with them too :( bing wasnt there yet though!!would have been great if she had come down earlier then we could allll meeett! (: but anyhowss,i bough back 3 yummy choco scones and then met mum and sis for dinnerr at lot oneee.

i gotta return to work tomorrow!!!ahhhhh wth :( my sup messaged so yeahh,my plan tomorrow is all ruinedddd :(

HOKAY pics from today (:

baldieee hahahha

LOVE LOADS <3